Thursday, August 31, 2017

Reflections on a DC Vacation

Four-fifths of my little family went to DC for a short vacation last week (the eldest is on a long-term vacation called "School in Vancouver" and couldn't join us).

Besides having a really great time, eating amazing food, surviving a minor Airbnb mis-step (don't ask), dining with a cherished local camp friend and her husband, exploring some wonderful museums, and spending tons of high quality moments as a (four-fifths) family -- I found myself genuinely moved by several experiences on the visit. That's what I want to dig into here.

Let me start with the punchline: The world needs more America.

That is to say, the world needs the strong and united America that was idealized by its Founding Parents. It may never have existed except as the dream of some truly visionary people a few hundred years ago, but boy does the world need what they were preaching and what's there, carved in stone, on their monuments...
Jefferson: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal; that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights; that among these are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness." 
Lincoln: "Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal..."  
Lincoln: "With malice toward none; with charity for all; with firmness in the right, as God gives us to see the right, let us strive on to finish the work we are in; to bind up the nation's wounds; to care for him who shall have borne the battle, and for his widow, and his orphan – to do all which may achieve and cherish a just and lasting peace, among ourselves, and with all nations."
Standing at Lincoln's knee and reading his words was profoundly moving; especially so after a very long walk on a hot day passing war memorials, homeless people, families with frisbees, the Capitol Building and Washington Monument at our backs - thirsty, tired, and at the top of a grand stone stairway; it was like all of that was a ritual cleansing to prepare us for the reminder of what the US is supposed to be about, and we deeply felt it. (And we're Canadian, for God's sake.)

Likewise for the Jefferson Memorial - the grandeur of the monument and the simple clarity of the words "...all men are created equal..."

What happened? How can people revere these individuals and what they stood for and be so deaf to their messages?

John Adams was 'making sense' centuries ago on these questions:
"The essence of a free government consists in an effectual control of rivalries" and "Remember, democracy never lasts long. It soon wastes, exhausts, and murders itself. There never was a democracy yet that did not commit suicide."
But why?

My wife and middle-daughter went to the Holocaust Museum; the younger one and I went to the Spy Museum instead (which by the way, was the best museum I've ever been in for kids). The ponderous silence of the usually garrulous duo spoke volumes when we met up afterwards: How? Why? And how can the world not have learned?

Between these overpowering moments, we saw live music, ate amazingly un-American meals (that is to say light and elegant), played games, shopped and walked the city. And then my wife and baby went home, leaving me and the middle one alone together for two more days in the city.

That's when we took in the art galleries. And boy, did I underestimate the impact of that. (Highly regretful that we didn't bring the 8-year-old there because of my childhood perception that art is boring - which is not to say that Art, my father, is anything of the sort).

Layered on top of those reminders of the American Dream, the stark reality of homeless people and the privileged sharing the same parks and spaces, and the monuments to recent and long-ago war-to-end-all-wars wars - the art packed a punch that was completely unexpected: Modern art and artists delivering their messages about war, peace, love, and everything in between - and in a few cases inviting the observer into the delivery of messages (the wishing tree, the "My Mommy is Beautiful" wall); and all the artists who came before, who lived in very different times and saw the world with very different eyes - whether soldiers in the trenches or painters in the employ of a royal court - delivering their messages loud and clear from long ago... it all made sense in the context of the week's experience.

These people - the artists and the Presidents - they stood for something and stood up for something. They faced people who told them not to do what they were doing, and they did it anyways. They had the courage to believe in something and act accordingly. They changed the rules. They lived and died and are remembered because of what they left behind. And all the little things that dragged them down in their day-to-day are long forgotten. Why does it bug me so much when I'm cut off in traffic?

So I leave Washington intending to be a better, more focused person at work and at home.

And I leave wondering how the country with such an evocative and expressive capital city, and such a deep and obvious love of its history, its Founders' ideals, art, music, food... how that country can be so far astray today, in a world that needs it so badly to get back on track?

Why can't that country stop treating its political system as if it's Friday Night Texas high school football and you must cheer for one team and despise the other? Why can't they find it within themselves to fight together, instead of against each other, for their ideals?

As one lady said to my 22-year-old (on a DC Ducks tour no less), paraphrased: "It's up to your generation. You have the power and the means to fix it. You just have to do it."

But that's passing the buck a little (or a lot). We all have the power and the means. These are our times. The mandate of building a better world is in our hands. The accountability for doing what's right lies with us right now, and not our ancestors or the generations to come.

The world isn't a reality tv show we're all watching. We're the authors, we're the producers, we're the artists, we're the leaders, ... and we should find the will to act accordingly.

Thank you, DC (of all places!), for the reminder.

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Mental Purge

Every now and then, I just have to purge things from my brain. This is one of those times.

Begin purge...
During the dark ages, there were probably a lot of sleepless knights. 
Would we still think ill of hyenas if they were called "chipmunks" or "bunnies"? 
I miss the sound of a couple of pennies jingling in my pocket, but that's just my two-cents' worth. 
I forgive everyone who has ever farted in my presence - what's past is past. 
I wonder if flies have a saying: "What happens on flypaper stays on flypaper"
In food, tasteless is the same as bland, but in words and deeds, tasteless and bland are very different things. 
One can't own the sky, but Ione Skye (when you're purging, you can say anything). 
I'm still angry about the time that guy got Pringles crumbs all over my shoulder. 
What's the right way to rub someone? 
I'm 52, which is exactly how many cards there are in a deck (if I were playing with a full one). 
I wouldn't be caught dead as a zombie or a vampire. 
Why are you coming to my mall to shop for trend-forward clothing, shoes, handbags, accessories and more? Your Guess is as good as mine.
...End Purge 

Friday, August 11, 2017

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

I Found a Time Machine Yesterday

I found a time machine yesterday.

I hopped inside and set the dial as far back as it would go,
which was only as far as the day I was born,
And where I went first.

I saw my mother and father and three sisters rejoicing at the birth of a boy.
(At last a boy!) A family of six, with four kids under 8.
What were they thinking?

I set the dial ahead to 1969, when I was just starting school,
And our first year in Toronto (North York really).
The first times I myself remember, always happy and carefree.

Next I went to 1977, my first summer away at camp.
Amazing times, blissfully happy times of enormous growth,
With more friends than I could count and a new taste of freedom.

On to the day at university when I met my wife.
No, not that day exactly - the one where we walked for hours in the snow holding hands.
So happy to have found someone, and so ignorant that I had found someone.

Which pushed me on to my wedding day in 1989.
What took so long, and why did we marry so young?
Everyone around us happy, none more than us.

To a blizzard in 1992 and the birth of our first daughter.
I thought I knew joy before, but nothing next to this.
She stole my heart with her first breath.

To New Years 1995 and the wee hours of the morning;
The birth of our second and an exponential leap in happiness.
All the pieces in place for the rest of my life.

Until we changed our mind in 2008 (a moment I peeked in on),
And told the girls (another blissfully happy visit),
And had our third in 2009.

I lingered at that moment, with all of us in the delivery room
(two hiding behind the bathroom door),
As much joy in that moment as all the others combined.

And then I set the dial as far ahead as it would take me,
Which was only to yesterday, when I found the time machine.
It won't let me see into my future until I get there myself.

As I think back today, I see that I'd only stopped at the happy times,
The shiny and irresistible happy times,
Not bothering with those that weren't,

And now, with no time machine to carry me ahead,
There will be times of joy, but no power to stop there,
And there will be times that aren't, with no power to skip them.

Advancing in time, one second at-a-time,
Every moment mine to experience once, whether I want to or not,
And to relive forever, if I choose.

In the time machine I found yesterday.